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by pussochkram85

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we do not lose heart



"Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart."
2 Corinthians 4:1

What shocks me about God is He is ALIVE.
I went to the church today, with my usual problem I have when I start a new thing:
uneasy and slightly deep wet voice whispering in my head, 'run away!'.
(you know, usual thing you perhaps also had at the begging of the new semester)
I was worried. I was worried about my new job, my new life in Tokyo, worried about the hectic train ride, and all the other rubbish.
then what happened? bang, God brought me this passage above in the Bible at the church.it was a God's mercy that saved me, and guided me to this path.
There is nothing that I could've done to make it till this point, and to be honest,
I even tried to prevent somehow not to have this job (wage is low, and I need to be in Tokyo.....leaving Okinawa and family is unimaginably hard for some people).
but God gave me this job. I cannot find words to express how weak I am, how terrible person I am.
I even tried to block what God was planning me. and the truth is, He is powerful.
Of course He is. He created everything. how foolish am I, trying to fight with Him?
He brought me back to his place. My worries are now almost gone.
It's Him who gave me this job, what I can do is just to do whatever I need to do, with all my heart, all my soul, all my mind and all my strength. Thank You Lord!

I didnt share this to anyone at the church, i want to keep it inside of me.
just like a specific memory with someone you care, that are too precious you need to keep it in you.
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by pussochkram85 | 2010-09-05 21:57 | 未分類

感謝


東京一日目。

母に見送られるようにして出た沖縄。
正直もっといたかった。もっとのんびりしてたかった。
でもこれ以上のんびりしていたら、きっとどんどん私は社会の輪からずれていくんだ、
と自分に言い聞かせて搭乗。

東京で友達の家族に暖かく迎え入れてもらえて、今にいたる。

やっとほっとしてきたかも。
がんばんなきゃ、とは思わない。
でも、甘ったれではありたくない。
自分が無理しないように、がんばってこう。

と思いながら、母さんと話したら涙が出てきた夜。
[PR]
by pussochkram85 | 2010-09-03 22:21 | 神と歩む