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by pussochkram85

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one year past

it is still difficult to realise that it is already a year past since I came to Tokyo.
I read back what I wrote when I started the job, and then looking back, I'm still the same, me.I'm still scared, I'm still worried about things. may be things could be different from then, but myself is not changing.
What has been changed was my attitude towards God and others, perhaps.
I started to hear from people that I am calmed down a little compare to when I was a student. Of course, the fatigue I have from day-to-day work may make myself a bit calmer and less energetic, but I also kinda know what they are talking about.
I myself is also realising that I started to think more carefully and rather realistically these days. this could mean a good thing, but sometimes it felt like as if I am losing that passion towards God. However, God, has never failed anything for whole this year. How far away I run away from Him, He was there, waiting for me to come back and when I came back he brought me loads and loads of blessings. Countless forgiveness and grace is almost choking my neck, but rather gently and the tiny path of the air on my throat was cleared out by the tears dropped by Lord.
I was challenged, I was asked, and I must admit, I felt like as if I was standing alone on certain situation. That was wrong. God was there, He was there, carrying me on his back, like the well known poem, the Footprint.

So what I want to say, is that believing in Jesus and God who created me with a great great plan, is the best thing that could ever happened to me.
and I am thankful that I am still in love with Lord. May He never let me go.
[PR]
by pussochkram85 | 2011-09-24 22:06 | 神と歩む